silly little things

Happy Friday!

This week kicked my ass for a multitude of reasons and I am ready for it to be over.

My week started off not so bad Monday morning. I mean it’s Monday so there is only so much I can expect. Then Monday night my week just got turned down. I spent Tuesday looking like I aged forty years due to stress and anxiety. I went to bed early Tuesday night hoping to get back on track for Wednesday and being okay. There was just so much going on at one time.

I woke up Wednesday and it was Harry Styles’ birthday and watching the live stream of his concert was honestly what was getting me through the day. I had half a work day Wednesday so I slept after and was preparing to go to Kayla’s. When I got there we decided on snacks from the gas station and taco bell for the livestream.

I love getting snacks at the gas station (let’s go soon cassy). It’s just a simple pleasure I have in life. I go I get a drink I get a snack and I eat it in the parking lot most of the time with Cassidy. We sit and talk and it’s just a really soothing ritual that we do. A simple silly little thing.

So Kayla and I are at this gas station we get our snacks and we are back in the car. All week I grabbing on to my comfort things in life, so of course i requested the music to be none other than Midnight Memories (the album) by One Direction. We are sitting in the parking lot, Kayla’s looking up the taco bell menu and little white lies comes on. This is a headbanger song. We turn it up and we are dancing head banging in our seats. This lady gets out of her car and is looking at us head banging with us before she goes into the gas station. Just a silly little thing. A moment in time.

We watched the live stream that night and while it’s not as cool as being there it was definitely an experience. We had our snacks, all the room in the world to dance and we could talk. We must of danced crazy for like four songs straight. Not just jumping up and down, swaying back and forth. Just full out silly little dance moves. And it felt glorious. Just dancing while watching one of my favorite artist perform with my friend in a comfortable setting. Just a silly little thing in the grand scheme of things.

When it was over I looked at her and I was like I needed that. It was good and pure and cleansing.

Thursday came around and I was like there’s no way I can participate in today, there was just too much. I felt horrible and I could barely move from bed. So I did not. I did not move from bed. By like 7pm I had to get out of bed. I texted my friend Dylan and I was like please come with me to get food.

I have known Dylan for a long time and he has seen me through some of the hardest times in my life. I know that I can show up any kind of way with him and no matter my mood I’m going to feel like life is gonna be alright after we are done hanging out.

I pick him up and I get something to eat and he brings up that there is suppose to be this comet tonight. So I was like sick are we gonna watch it? He said yes. So we go where it’s dark and we are looking for this comet. Dylan and I can talk about anything and everything and I admire that about our friendship. Even when he is doing statistics homework. We are talking mindlessly about things and it comes time for the comet, and the song that’s playing when we get out of the car is Lump Sum by Bon Iver. If you’ve never heard it you should listen. It’s melancholy and slow. Something you listen to when you’re down or when it’s raining outside.

Lump Sum is playing and we are outside my car looking in the direction of where the comet is suppose to be. I can’t help but comment to Dylan that one of my favorite things is songs like lump sum playing over moments where you’re feeling kinda infinite. Like we are looking for a comet in the sky at night on a Thursday night; and I felt like the world is wide and big and stretches forever and that I was gonna be okay. The song playing over the moment just kinda made it all the better. A silly little thing.

We ended up not seeing the comet but we were just talking. I was like I need an idea for a blog post. Dylan and I had already talked about a hundred things that I could make a blog post but I needed something else.

He does this thing were he laughs to himself, and I fall for it every time. I always go what are you laughing at? It could be dead silent and Dylan will just laugh a little laugh. He’ll tell me nothing particular. So we started talking about how much better life is when you admire the little things. Focus on those instead of the big things. How much better life is when you’re laughing through it. So when I asked him what I should write about before he could even spit an idea out I was like wait I know! I’m going to write about the little things.

There are so many little things in life that you just have to take a moment to recognize. They are in your everyday life all the time. A song you haven’t listened to in a while, coffee just the way you like it, a hot shower, dancing to your favorite artist like no ones watching, a good conversation, a really great hug and etc.

I do think being able to enjoy little things takes a level of mindfulness about your day. We often miss the little things so much. They are just little moments in time, but when you recognize them for what they are they become your big moments. The things that turn your day or week around. They feel so sweet and comforting when you bask in them for what they are.

Thank you to Kayla and thank you to Dylan for giving me little things this week I really needed them.

With my thoughts on the Internet,

RJC