For the kids

Happy April!

I’ll be very honest I need April to end as soon as possible. Started off strong with a trip to San Francisco, but after that it is not going so well. Learning that sometimes thats just what happens in life. There’s a balance not every month is gonna be the best month ever.

One thing I did this month that makes it a little worth all the shit is that I started working with children. If you have known me for awhile you know that at one point (for awhile) I was not a fan of children. Never could picture working with them, having them, being any sort of mentor to them. Didn’t like being around them. I was just put off by them.

Over the last year and a half while doing my soul searching and healing, I realized that children are really fucking cool. Like so cool. They aren’t easy, but they are really awesome. My gripe with kids was all about me. All about my childhood and me not being connected to my inner child. Not realizing how precious kids are. Healing my inner child has probably been the coolest thing I have ever done.

I think all the time about what my younger self would think about how I am today. I think she would really think I’m appearance cool, but wouldn’t get the personality change. 12 year old Rebecca had a stick up her ass a mile long. I like to think I’m a lot more open now then I was at 12.

While connecting with my inner child I found myself becoming who I wanted to be when I didn’t have everyone else’s opinions. Kids are so unfiltered. They are so unapologetically themselves it’s fun to watch. They have a curiosity that is unmatched because they don’t know any better and are so strong willed it makes you waiver a bit when dealing with them.

Kids also like what they like and they are not sorry about it. That was my favorite lesson to relearn. To connect with people that like the things I like at this age was the single best thing ever. It’s so fun. I had to embrace it first though.

The ages I’m referencing are so little too. Like ages 3-7 so much happens in those years. We are growing and we don’t realize how impactful it is.

I think a lot of the healing I am doing about inner child is from my middle school years. Those were rough. I definitely recommend looking into what happened to you in middle school that made you who you are now.

I could go on and on about teenagers. They are so annoying! Also some of the deepest feelers you will ever meet. I firmly believe you will never feel as deeply as you did when you were a teenager for multiple reasons.

Looking at my childhood as I enter adulthood is the coolest most healing thing I have ever done. I hope that one day you’ll look up how to heal my inner child and start doing it. It’s the answer to a lot of questions you might not even know you had. For me it unlocked a lot of likes and passions I wrote off.

Life is better when you have a child like curiosity about it.

With my thoughts on the internet,

RJC